[Surrogate's Blog]
A day without surrogate, is like any other day, except... without surrogate.Poof.
2007-09-08
Good afternoon everyone.
My life has been marked by more than a few failures, or better said, I have marred my life with more than a few.
Eh. No biggie. Probably most of us could say the same thing.
Monday, though, I mark the date of the only failure in my life I care about. Monday would have been my 30th anniversary if I was still married. And, even after being divorced now for six years plus a little, it still gets to me, and causes real heartache.
My life these days is just fine, and I'm happy for the most part. -And who knows, maybe it'll get ab-so-toot-ly wunnerful again one of these days. There's no tellin'...
But Monday? Monday's gonna be tough. I'll do a bunch of playing "what if?" I'm sure. I'll think about our little family; my ex, the kids, me; and how much being a part of that little unit of ours always meant to me, and how very much I loved - and love - whatever that weird mix was that constituted "us." I don't have a clue what it was, and I couldn't see it, but my oh my, I felt it every single day.
Oh well...
"All the things you planned?
-just sand castles washed away
On tidal waves of tears,
fears overpowering...
Your complex dreams?
-just slither down; drowning in rocky pools...
-Or smashed and dashed on peril's course,
divorcing prematurely, thoughts of lasting love..."
(from "Thirty Years" by U.K.)
For what it's worth, Happy 30th Anniversary Leenie.
Be good to everyone.
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